Congratulation

Geeta, a medium height, olive face, and slim girl, who loves me. But , I ignore her love because I love smriti, But now a days, When smriti leaves me alone. I confess her (geeta)love passionately . But I t’s late now . Geeta, fells in someones love and my previous lover smriti also fell in someones Love. I heard, whose name is Kishor, But I don’t know who is kishor .Is he her relative? or is he her lover? those given question haunt me deeply.

        I Love her and I hoped she also loved me but now, why she is completely changed? Can she forget our past days? Our amusement life. But, how can I forget our past life. Why she plays a conspirable game to lat me in the back. Why? The story PRATIKSHYA KO ANTYA which is my first story presents my life of that time in the forms of my Reminiscence’ which constantly agonises me in the present. I can’t forget the day when she telephoned me first, and I can’t forget those days also, when madan challenged me for her. In these days my unnamed dear friend said to me’ don’t worry, she will reject him and accept you guarranty, she accept you if she can’t accept you she hadn’t telephoned. Then I optimst in his arguments and waiting for her.

          When I met her first in my life, I realised she was a girl not likely to be found in the whole town. I loved her tenderly , deeply but I reflected and kept , asking myself, What our life could lead to, if we didn’t  have the strength to fight  against our social status. My love growing with silent when I came back to pokhara from narayangadh she simply stopped to love me.

          Meanwhile the years were passing. One two and three yeas also absolutely passed. In this gap of the years, she fells in kishors love. In fact, she leaves me alone in my dark world and gone to the newly opened beautiful world for her. I want to congratulate her from my deep and dark world. I didn’t want to distrubes her new life but I love her untilk my death etiher her new story is begin or not. It is told her new life had just been   begin. Therefore want to in Congratulate her from the brotton of my heart. I wish her all the best and worship god for her new life will be suceesful in every step of life. Congratulation to her. Congratulation.

A LETTER TO A BELOVED

(This letter is a extract from a novel, which is not completed yet)

Kritika,

   Live anywhere be happy there. I’m praying with god to give you a happy and prosperious life.

I haven’t any words to recognize you. You’re like a painting, which is abstract, setteled on the wall. I can’t know your actual meaning in anyway. I found different meanings about you from every corner of my sense. You’re neither alovely girl nor a betrayer because either you love me or deceive me. But the reality is that- you reject me or I’m rejected. However I haven’t any sordid to you. Your actual meaning is unsophisticated.

          Kritika, after my S.L.C., I have to go to palpa. It’s my necessity. At the time of our departure, I can’t inform you about my situation. That’s why may be you thought me a selfish boy. But I’m not a selfish boy. It is said that –“Each man has thrir own behaviour.” Yes I knew these days, there were many vast differences among man and man, lover and beloved. But I don’t know, what are the differences between you and me except male and female? That’s why, why are you indifference about me? Whereas I love you very much. Yes, I love you very much. I can’t forget you. Who can forget his first love easily? Which he deeply wanted. Why is it vast difference between your past and presnt attitude to me? Why do you hate me now? While you’re also fell in love with me.

          The very unhappy situation of my life was that-when you told me something by Deepa. After that case, I knew that you’ve totally changed all of a sudden. But why? Then I felt I’m not a part of your beautiful world. So I want to leave you in front and trying to escape from what’s the rear line of your beautiful world.

          Kritika,I met Krishna and told him all the things about my life.but, he doesn’t ask me about you. I thought he had already been well introduce with you.because there is a snse of negligence in his behaviour. Then I met your friend uma. She heard a story about me and gave me sympathy instead of normal behave. She treats me as a mad lover. Because, my life was full of deceive and sorrow. But I didn’t get any sympathy from you whereas I’m peerless. I have no more tear left for me. Kritika, here are every human being is selfish by nature. In deep love, selfishness of two individuals has to be sacrificed.they has to loose their selfishness for the sake of love. Selfishness and love are two opposite thingswhich keep on clashing with each other. If  they want to succeed in their love, they must be loose their selfishness. But I know you can’t  do it. Anyway I love you until my death.

According to philosophers, one sided love means ‘a life of accepting insult after insult. There is no pride and owner in it. It’s like madness. Everybody looks down and disparage a one sided lover. And the life of an alone person is a life of struggle where defeat is certain.’ They say also that ‘one sided love means living in hopelessness and pessimism about future. Their faces show gloom and blessness because they have nofuture plans and future itself. It’s something like living and waiting for the death. As a result, they become targets of death.’ This is how philosophers describe their miserable life of love.

          Kritika, I love you very muchabove my family members. I had given up my family for your love’s sake. It is also said that ‘man has got a selfish heart and the cause of selfishness is unhappiness.’ I gave my love to you for your happiness not so far any returns. Now a day, I needn’t your love for my existence. I can live without you. A different power is developed in my heart, when you leave me alone. So you should accept your life without any complain and be happy always.

          Kritika, please try to understand me. I won’t enter without permission,

from the door where your beautiful world has setteled in front. Rest assured me.

          Have a happy and prosperious life, bye

                                                                                      Longlasting yours